Being Polyamorous
Being polyamorous means burning all the blueprints I have been given to create a relationship and drawing my own.
It means hearing, “This could never happen,” and responding with, “Why not?”
It means being a pioneer in relationships and creating connections I have never seen before.
It means falling in love and then building a life around it, even if it seems impossible.
Being poly means every connection brings a unique depth of joy to my life, that I would not experience without it.
It means getting comfortable with the ever-shifting nature of relationships and having juice and life and growth be the goal.
It means letting go to hold onto myself, it means leaning in if that is where I come alive.
It means building committed connections where I am committed to the growth and aliveness of others, beyond my immediate feelings.
Commitment is about showing up and caring, even if I don't feel like it. Even if I am scared. Even if I am worried I won’t do it right.
It means a depth of heart and soul and slowing down, even when my body wants me to speed up.
It means taking time to figure out what I want instead of getting lost in compliance.
It means making sure the people in my life can feel how I value them, even when I build a connection with someone new.
It means creating life with more than one soul and learning exactly what that takes.
It means having the desire to deeply love with the wholeness of my being and let myself be loved right back. And savor it, if it is for a day or a lifetime.
Being poly is not about being casual. In fact, my sex and heart lose their power when I try to water down my hunger.
It is about letting someone into the gift of my being and dealing with the intensity of being loved like that.
It is touching the divine, through someone else’s skin, through relishing in the scent of someone else’s clothes.
Through finding out what makes someone else tick, what makes them feel adored, and giving that.
It requires insane trust. And it is joyful insanity that I can’t help but choose every day.
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With Love,
Maria
